Moving to a new country away from my family, friends, community and my infant theatre company has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Heck, moving anywhere new and starting afresh is disorientating. I am always missing someone...and feel slightly unable to lay down roots here. It is a constant state of uneasiness....but mostly an ADVENTURE.
I have revisited this quote from my good friend, Drew several times since being over here:
When waging war on the battlefield of creation vs. destruction, the warrior often finds that there are those in his or her company whose patience falters in the face of a seemingly indefatigable foe. But for every hundred of those fallen disgraced soldiers, there are one or two true brothers and sisters who will fight at our side until the end of time; and it is them that we must honor and adore...the darkest shadow follow those who carry the brightest light. Be buoyant, sister-clown, eyes open, mouth wide, eyebrows up!
I have become close with some of the loveliest souls and continually feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have such amazing friends and family back home. There have been some dark hours, but I have never been alone. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I have fallen in love with England. I have fallen in love with finding my way through different cultures. I have fallen in love with the wonderful people I have met and worked with. Most of all, I have fallen in love all over again with my own country. I never thought about how much I like America. Yes, it is flawed...what country isn't? It is such an infant country...and massive. We are still figuring things out. We are still figuring out who we are. But it is the American Dream and the preamble from the Declaration of Independence that runs through my veins and has helped make me who I am today.
The grass is greener EXACTLY where you water it. Fight to be cheerful in whatever situation you find yourself in. Most of the time, our happiness or misery depends on our perspective of the situation rather than the situation itself.
There is too much in this world that wants to bring us down, fight with one another, hate, feel lonely, insecure, helpless, worthless, unhappy, entitled, angry, bitter...and you know what...it isn't worth it. It is exhausting and it wastes time. Beauty is so much more wonderful to look at. Happiness is so much more fun to feel...perhaps because it is hard to attain at times.
Acting/Theatre is Service. The one thing you are not serving, is yourself. You are never important. You are here to serve the story, audience, community, fellow actors and the space. Be a citizen of the world.
ANYTHING CAN BE GOOD IF YOU LET IT